My Wishes

My wishes....if the day comes and there is time my wish is to have a living funeral.  I ran across an article about this while driving to my grandmother's memorial.  Time is so hard to plan in the unknown. And emotions are all over the board right after someone dies. So the planner in me, thinks a living funeral screams Dawnelle.  You see I have always said my funeral will be a party. To celebrate my life, not mourn my death. And after reading of a way to be apart of my own party....I want this for myself and for those I love that when my time comes nothing is left unsaid or unanswered. My daughter has always said she will have bubbles and balloons there for me. She definitely knows what makes her mom smile. I don't want any question to go unanswered of what my wishes are. So I figured my blog can't get lost as easy as a piece of paper. I want laughter. I want smiles. I want a big party with everyone I love. I want memories for my children, husband, family & friends to keep them going. I have already asked my cousin Ryan to perform my service, when the time comes. A question I know he never wanted to hear. I may be a dreamer,  but I am also realistic. I am not afraid to die, I am afraid of not fully living. Life is one big giant adventure meant to explore. It's not always rainbows and glitter. But learning not to let the crap get you down and keep you there, is a sweet tool to acquire. So if it's possible to be apart of my celebration of life, I chose this. I want the song: You're Gonna Miss Me When I am Gone", "There Will Be a Day of no more suffering,  no more pain". Then after I am gone my wish is to have my family take a trip of a lifetime and spread a handful of my ashes in all of our favorite places we have been; canyon beach, smokey mountains in Tennessee, Victoria, big crater on Hawaii, ebey's on Whidbey Island and then to take the rest of me to some where new of their choosing and let me go. I write this today not to be sad, but to let you have my words for when they are needed. I figure if I put it here, someone will remember. Do I think I am dying tomorrow?  Nope, but there's about 100% chance I will at some point. I leave this here for then. The other thing I have always said is Ken can totally remarry with my blessing as long as she is funny, has big boobs and invests in our children with love....he rolls his eyes at me for this...but my wish is that he keeps living with lots of laughter and love in his life. ♡ Love with my whole heart,
Dawnelle Claudette Bowen Pike Conlisk