Saying someone can't be sad because someone else may have it worse is just like saying someone can't be happy because someone else might have it better.
This past month I have let cancer win. It felt at times that I wasn't allowed to embrace my own journey. I have watched others fighting, dying and getting diagnosed these past 2 months with worse cancers then my "good cancer". Is there really such a thing as a "good cancer"? Those words have taken a giant toll on me. For 20 years now I have fought to push thru thyroid fog brain, staying positive and full of life, fighting being exhausted and wanting to always take a nap, and just being cold. That is my norm. But we all have issues and I choose to not let it keep me captive. I have been really short fused and grouchy. I apologize for being snappy. But the quote above really hit me. It's ok that I am sad....and it's ok that I embrace my fears. Because I have to process my journey too. Having a scheduled plan has always been my turning point. I can best describe it as that moment after a storm when the clouds open and the sun starts shinning. I am nervous as there's so little documentation on my procedure ahead. But I am willing to try it because this could be a giant change if it's successful in the world of treating thyroid cancer. Only one day off of work. And if for any reason it doesn't work, there's always surgery. Really looking forward and praying I can watch the screen as the nasty beast melts away just like the wicked witch. Gonna get some ruby slippers! Sparkle time! #strengthhopelove
